The weather place says it may get up to 74 degrees today, and I like the sound of that. A little sun and warm help my mood.
Ella was sick all of Saturday night and Sunday with vomiting and diarrhea, absolutely no fun at all, so yesterday she was with me at work. I like to have her with me all day. It makes me feel solid. Substantial. Purposeful. Valuable. I never thought one little person could make me so complete.
Today she woke up in a good mood and headed off to school. I think some sun and playing outside will complete her recovery. She is such a bright light in my life, and I feel so overwhelmed with love at times.
I have been working on a project at work to update the library catalog and properly shelve every book. I came across The Handmaids Tale and decided to read it again. Boy has it been depressing. When she has the dreams of her daughter, who was stolen from her, it breaks my heart and I begin to cry. I reach for Ella to feel her reassuring warmth. No one will ever take her from me. I'd kill them. I'd die.
So a sunny day is what I need to get that damn story out of my head. Why do I worry that our country is heading towards that fate? Maybe because books like this are soaring? Or laws that we take for granted are being threatened? Will our country turn that frightening corner towards a police state, or has it all ready?
Okay, I'll get out in the sun for a while. I'll take my daughter on a bike ride. I'll think of the fun we will have this weekend with friends in Iowa. Maybe I'll get the dishes done, to soothe my inner housewife soul.
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Here's an interesting little tidbit to heap on top of all the baaaaad things going on: my lovely workplace has just instituted a "Whistleblower Policy" that all employees and volunteers are suppose to go through an electronic tutorial on and sign at the end. Basically it reads like any corporate policy about embezzlement and gross misconduct and such. But that's not really the point, is it? We are obviously no longer being trusted, as we have for the past 153 years, to conduct ourselves in a professional manner, but we must sign a form stating that we will rat out eachother through 'proper' channels and police one another.
The loss of liberty does not happen all at once, it is chipped away in little bits and pieces. Small steps curtailing freedom often sound like a good idea in their singular form but these tiny fissures in our protective armor of privacy have a way of cracking and expanding when the weather gets cold enough, and there's nothing colder than fear.
Sorry to be such a bummer and on a Tuesday no less!
Chris
See, that's just it, they take away one right at a time from one group at a time. I read an article awhile back about some guy and his wife who couldn't use their credit card because they had a "flag" on file. Seems they paid off a credit card in a big lump sum, just to get out of debt, and it red flagged them as possible terrorists. You know, if we stop using things like hard currency and paper ballots we will be in a big old pile of doo-doo. One key stroke and your freedom is gone.
I'm getting more paranoid all the time. I don't mean to get all WACKO or anything, but yeah, what's happening here? Are we intering an age of a New Inquisition? I know I've said it before, but I get daily reminders of VALIS.
Ugh! Guilt trip! You didn't post forever, I was never online and then I went to the east coast. Then I feel ba d for not saying hi! Well, you must find me in Pella. I will be here absoluut!
I have nothing else to do. And plus! If you know of a job I can have in Oshkosh, I may live with you this summer. I'm dead poor. It's a good story, you should hear it!
I'd love to hear your story. And, I am sure we can find you a job here, if you really want to come for the summer.
I heard about that "Inner Housewife" book and thought it would be a fun read. Just assumed it was suppose to be satire - you think it's serious?
Have a great time in Iowa, we will be thinking about everyone and wish we were there. Sigh...
Nope, she means it all. I saw an interview with her on the Colbert Report. SHe's smart, there's no doubt about that, but she's a true beliver in her cause. Maybe I'll check the book out from the library to do some research on my failures.
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